Having a Vision

I am by no means a religious person. I believe their is a higher power. With that said I came across this yesterday Proverbs:29:18 "Where there is no vision, the people will perish"
I can remember back to my worst of times and only feeling like I was existing. I felt like I was a waste of life. I wasn't accomplishing anything outside of my illness. I didn't know if I ever would. When I started to feel better I could begin to see outside of myself, but not very far. I could see others succeeding, and making a difference in others lives. I wanted that, but who was going to listen to me?? I have a mental illness and I thought that was the end. I had no vision for anything in front of me. I made no long-term plans. It was a dark and dismal place. To not believe in yourself, no one else will either. It took years and years of endless unnecessary suffering to finally see there was a light beyond what I dreamed. Whether you have mental illness or something else that holds you back, remember you must have a vision for yourself and your life. Just existing is not enough....ever. If I can come out of the depths of darkness and find a vision and a dream you can too. I am not superwoman. I am just a girl who wants to be more than my illness.

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