Mental health month. " the process informs the destination" author unknown. A wise woman today told me that I have an inner fire and inner strength that has kept me moving forward throughout my life. Dealing with bipolar over the last 15 years I don't think I ever stopped and thought or wondered if I had the strength or if I was strong. I think I just clawed my way through and fought every struggle as it came. I didn't look to the Future and wonder how I would get there I wondered if I would get there. I didn't have dreams for the future. It was kind of a blank slate in a way. So I guess looking back knowing I had no Back-up Plan when I got sick and it was one struggle after the other for me and my family. I don't think they ever thought I would get through it and be the same person I was and I definitely didn't think so. So maybe having that empty slate, for me, left my life open to possibilities. There was no preconceived notion of what was going to be. So now I find myself saying yes and opening myself up to endless possibilities. Sure I still have the ups and the downs and some days are higher and some days are lower but that's just a fact that I deal with on a daily basis. So for now I'm happy there's that empty slate for me to fill with whatever comes my way.